Day 2

Tears shed: Zero
Depression level: non existant

Somehow I thought today would feel different but instead it just feels like a normal Saturday. Perhaps Tuesday will feel different when I don't go to work. But who knows. Maybe I'll settle into a routine and be fine. Yesterday was a day of mixed emotions. I was definitely sad but the sadness seemed to stem more from knowing I wouldn't get to see my friends every day. That I won't be able to chat with them, keep up with their day to day lives and that eventually it's quite possible that I'll lose track of some of them. Thinking about that possibility is difficult. What I need to remember though is that it doesn't have to turn out that way. The loss isn't the reality - what I make it is. We might not see each other all the time but we can still be friends. I don't talk to my friends in Fresno that often but I still feel like we're friends. And when we do speak with each other we seem to fall back into those roles easily. I need to write out a list of why I had to quit so that I can refer back to it when I start to doubt it was the right decision.